"I'll always be around, whenever you need me I'll be there. I promise."
"Cece, I love you so god damn much it makes my heart hurt when you're mad at me. My sister Ashley asked me if I loved you & I told her "Yes, with all my heart & I would give my life for her any day."
"All I want to do right now is just hold you & let all my worries fade. If I could I would put all my love into this letter, but my hand would fall off from writing so much. So you're just going to have to take my word when I said I love you A LOTT! You wanna know the best part about us? We've loved each other since the 2nd grade. I mean, who the hell can say they're still with their first crush?! Us! You know why? Because we're cool like that. Well boo, I just want to apologize for hurting you so many times, I never mean to hurt you intentionally & you know that. And I can only pray that you forgive me because I've done so much wrong to you that any other girl would of killed me & danced on my grace. But you're still with me & for that you're my soldier. That's how I know you truly love me baby girl. I don't think anybody could overcome the challenges you have. Sometimes I wonder if your heart's really made of steal & you just cry & stuff because that's what girls do ;) I'm just playin with you. But honestly, you're probably the toughest person I'll ever meet in my life. And I'm ready to live hand in hand with you forever. I hope you feel the same way because if you didn't I'd feel stupid. But babe, you can love and hate me all you want. I'm still going to be there for you no matter what. You could try to get rid of me as much as you want but baby I'm not going no where. I can't even imagine a life without you, that's how important you are to me."
"We might as well be attached at the hip because I'm here to stay, babe. Lately everything has been reminding me of you. Every time somebody talks about riding a bike or something I think of your shitty blue bike & how I rode it to your house while it had a flat tire. Or if somebody says something about pizza I laugh because I think of that night with you, me, and Charzard (Charlie) when we first seen that commercial. But most of all, when somebody says something about 'love, life, or babies' it's like a waterfall of you in my heart & mind. I miss you so damn much & I wish there was a way I could prove it to you right now but there's not. But right now worry about yourself and the baby. Don't worry about me for the time being. I know asking you to not worry about me is like asking for water not to be wet, but I can tell from your letters that you're not doing too good. And before I even got your letter I knew something was wrong because I could feel it in my heart. I NEED you to be strong, baby girl. If you're hurting, I'm hurting. If you're smiling, I'm smiling. Honestly, you're my life-line right now."
"And I know it's been awhile since we've last seen each other, but look at it this way: when we finally see each other again it'll be all the better. And remember, if you ever need me I'm just a letter away. Ok, that sounded wayyyyy better in my head, lol :) But, seriously if you ever need to just pour your heart out into a letter & I'll make you happy, just like I used to <3 The last thing I want you to think is that I'm not here for you anymore."
"I love you with all my heart & would give my life to be with you right now."
Awh c: I miss him so much.
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