I want to come home and not get screamed at every single day. I want my family to actually act like they care. I want Nick to come home. I want to feel like I'm loved. I want people to stop calling me a slut and staring at me. I want to be happy. And I want to feel something other than hate. I want to be like the other girls in class that have their boyfriends there and I want to feel comfortable talking in class. I want to feel like I have friends. Ever sense Nick left I've become a bitter person, I'm not happy. I'm always mad at someone or something, I even get mad for people laughing. I just want to go to sleep and stay laying in bed all day and all night. I want to be able to drink soda and not have people try to tell me how awful it is to drink it because I'm doing my child wrong. At least I'm not smoking or doing anything illegal. I'm usually at home, in my room by myself, or I'm working. I deserve a soda that I won't finish every once and a while. I just want my family to hug me and I want to feel safe in their arms, but that doesn't happen. It hasn't happened in months.
i just want to be happy
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