My little love bug!!!

I am just really, really sad.

Seriously almost put me into labor

LOL

My Poor Baby

She's been so sick and I feel so awful:( I hope she feels better soon! She's been doing nothing but cuddling with her momma and sleeping. :(

Update

I'm totally upset because now I have stretchmarks and I'm so mad I just want to freak out and kill everyone. I'm sick of that darn dog following me everywhere I go and I am very upset at my mom because last night I cleaned the house and mopped the floors and did all that junk and ordered pizza and SHE DIDN'T EVEN EAT IT. I'm so angry. And this belt is killlllliiiiiinnnnnngggggggg me and I'm very upset because people keep looking at me like I'm some weirdo and it's annoying. Like c'mon people I'm not the only pregnant person in the world. BUT I WANT THIS BELT TO GO AWAY.

scariest.night.ever.

Update

Lately my moms been really stressing me out and I don't know what to do about it because there's not much I can do about it. Work is stressful because I'm working so much that it's overwhelming me and I just want to be able to sleep and sleep and sleep until I can't sleep anymore and I just want to work on my dream book because blogging is so boring and i'm mad ass hell at Mrs. Harrison for skipping out on us but yeah

why was today so awful 

119 days today.

Woah

In 67 days I'll be giving birth to the most beautiful baby in the world.

My day

Today was a good day. I got to see my adorable son, got to spend time with Nick's aunt, cleaned my room, I don't work today, and I wasn't feeling like normal today. I felt pretty happy today. I wish everyday was like today was.

Letters

Even though I spend most of my time alone, I'm glad that I have a wonderful boyfriend like Nick here, even if he's not really here right now. I know for a fact that I couldn't have came this far without his support and without his letters. They seriously make me so happy. And he's right, all this distance was truly the best thing for us and it will all be worth it when he finally does get to come home. Lately we've been bickering, but the letter I got yesterday was probably the sweetest/cheesiest thing I've ever read. I love him so much. I'm so glad that I get the chance to say that I'm dating my best friend. I honestly have no idea what I would do without him. I can't believe that on Monday we'll have been together for 8 whole months. That seems like such a short time for some reason. Perhaps it's because we've known each other our whole lives. Probably because it's felt like we've been on and off dating our whole lives. haha. Our relationship is something else. I'm so happy that he's here for me. I don't know what I'd do without my sweetheart. Gosh, I love that kid with all of my heart.

Stressed

I'm so stressed with school and junk at home and quitting work. I'm really tempted to just not go into work tomorrow. I just want a day where I can just lay down and hang out with my son and Nick. I just want everything to really feel okay again. I hate not being able to trust anything my friends say. I hate not trusting anyone anymore. I hate feeling hate towards everything. I just really want things to get better. I just want to feel happy and excited about things again. I mean, I'm extremely happy and excited to meet my son and for Nick to come home so we can all be one happy family, but it seems like those moments will never come because they're taking way too long to get here. I just want my mom to actually take time out of her day to ask me how my day was or to even talk to me, but she doesn't and probably won't ever. She never has. I just want her to act like she cares. When my son is old enough to talk and to understand things, I'll ask him every single day how his day was. I'll hug him daily and I'll do everything I can to remind him that I care. I just want him to live a perfect life, well, as perfect as I can make it. I hope things get better soon.